Where there's a will, there's a way
I've been dark for a few months and I'm sorry to anyone who is reading. I'm not sure that's many people as of yet, but if you're out there, then I'm still here.
This year has been busy. After a COVID winter and a record wet July, I've been trying to get outside and take in summer as much as possible. Gardening...kayaking...campfires, its how we New Englanders like to roll in the summer. But this year has been so different and so I haven't been writing as much as I was in the winter. Well...I've been writing but its been sporadic and honestly, a bit painful. Let me explain.
For the past seven months I've been working on this huge project at work. I like the intricacies and visibility of the project but its a lot of connecting-the-dots, so I'm mentally drained most days when I'm done. I haven't had the mental bandwidth to write my creative stories.
But there's another reason, I've been indecisive and its been really bothering me. I've been indecisive about my characters in my first book titled: Christmas in Purgatory. Originally it was a fan-fiction story about Jacob Marley. But in my quest to get help on how to publish it, I got backlash for stealing someone else's characters. I learned rather quickly that fan fiction is frowned upon by some in the publishing world. And probably for good reason as there are legal implications.
In my panic, I tried to fix the story and rewrite it to be about different people. Similar story line, but different characters. I went through all the work and when I was done, I read it and it felt like something was missing. It lost its magic. So I decided to change it back. :( Yeah, #painful.
The truth of the matter is my story was a passion project created from my love of Charles Dicken's story The Christmas Carol. If anything, I hope that if Charles Dickens were alive to read it, he would think it was a nice compliment to his work. And I know that people write and publish fan fiction all the time, so there must be a way. #MyNewQuest
I know part of this journey is having thick skin and staying true to my passion, where ever it takes me. And I hope if I ever do become a fictional author, that my readers can feel that passion come through in the stories I write. And I hope that my stories take them away, as good stories should.
I don't know when or if Christmas in Purgatory will ever be published. But where there's a will, there must be a way...